Life is

not a ball being thrown. life is a ball being caught. Thrown sounds so reckless, dangerous, and sudden. But to catch something that has been thrown is to gain full control over it. And yes we are given numerous chances to catch so do not fear failure as that will only stop you from the playing the game.

What I am grateful for Right Now

◘ My sequinned black Chucks. They go with everything.

◘ That things can be written straight on point, and still be intresting.

◘ That I am in a house which has a running computer, shower, boiling water jug, lighters, pipes, electricity, gaming systems, telephones, cellphones, writing equipment, drawing equipment, and squidgey Das. YAY

◘That yesterday me and Priya found the most fucking awesome clothes.....................in the op-shop. No one else had bought them yet I can not believe it!

◘Self-Help Blogs. Ok I want a better word for describing self-help. Hmmmmmm Mind-Food Blogs. That sounds nicer.

◘ Tool

◘ Having the ability to write what is beautiful and show a side to what is not yet seen as beautiful.

Quote of The Day

"people that just assume that we are hateful don't understand that hate and anger are two completely seperate energies, they might have a similar emotional charge to them but anger is such a errr much more constructive emotion then hate." ~ Maynard James Keenan

What do you do on a day when you can create nothing?

*If your having trouble thinking of something to create you will undoubtably feel negative in some sort of way for some reason. Identify the reason your feeling negative and create a how to, on how to stop it. It's Creating and eliminating shit at the same time. cue: "woooooooooowwwww"

*Make a silent oath to read more books. Books give you ideas. Topics on where to begin. They highlight thoughts in your brain that have been doormant, for a long time.

*Remember even if your creation turns out cliche, basic, or boring, it simply means that this one creation sucks. If you make something that sucks it doesn't matter, just get over it and try again on a new day.

*If you are going to be late creating something then do so.

*If all else fails don't watch Television. It sucks.

Holy Shit I just Realised Wednesday

* When i'm high I should not take the high's effects on my mind seriously, I should observe them and bathe friviously in their fun. But I should NOT become an all out devotee to the thoughts. When that happenes I become depressed. I get high to enjoy the different state of mind trying to push it's way in, not to become depressed about realizations that probably arn't even true, don't even matter in the long run, and are made to seem more dramatic because of the weed's effects.
I must remain in control not let the weed have control. And by in control, that means not letting the new thoughts overcumb me and take me on.

*I am still me weed is merely entertainment, like when I write a poem to pass the time, and it comes out really shit, I don't take the poem seriously at all. It does not mean it is me just because I wrote it. I could have written it incorrectly.

*Maybe I need to learn how to explain things more simply. "If your out to describe the truth leave elegance to the tailor"

*It's easy to think positive things, just take on my usual positive mind set, without judging it, or putting it down, or making it out to be uncool. You dont need that kind of stone cold shite at all.

This morning I feel

$ Mapped out by plans....is there any secrets left in me? Or has each and every island of thought been discovered.
@My eyelids have mini anchors hanging from them.
%Randomness (when used correctly) should be a virtue
* I must start each day with something creative rather then reactive to show the world who's boss
^Musli with yoghurt, nuts, berries and no dried fruit is quite possibly the best instant food ever.

The positivity Challenge

I'm doing it and it's going to be great whether I fail or not, because i'm not procasinating for once, and actually making the effort to change myself for the better.

My tips to keep me going.

♣Focus on what you want, not on what you don´t want

♣Just say yes, or just do it

♣Smile to feel happier. Move slower to relax. Use positive language. Act as if you are a positive person and you will start to feel and become more positive. It might feel weird at first, but it really works.

♣If you don´t have time to sleep a healthy amount of hours, eat properly and get exercise then you need to reprioritize. If you don´t do this it will be harder to become and stay positive.

♣When feeling negative about something, accept the feeling. Say yes to it. Surrender and let it in.
Observe the feeling in your mind and body without judging it. If you just let it in and observe it for maybe a minute or two something wonderful happens. The feeling just vanishes.

♣Cut the negative threads quickly. Only allow yourself to go on a negative thread of thought for a set time-period, perhaps 30 seconds or a minute. Then just cut it off, drop it and think about what positive things you can get out of this situation.

♣Realise that it is possible to choose what you think about and how you react. You don´t have live your life in reaction. Being reactive to everything is not very empowering. You have a choice. But it might take some time to make this click in your mind. Even though I understood this intellectually pretty fast it took a longer time to understand and accept it emotionally and on a deeper level.

♣ A lot of people spend a lot of time thinking about on the mistakes they made in past. A better way is to think about the mistake you made and what you can learn from it. Then stop wasting your time and shift your focus to the present and the future where you can actually make a change.

♣“I’ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I’ve been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.” ~ Michael Jordan

Tips and challenge guidelines from The Positivity Blog

The how to do it
“Between stimulus and response is the freedom to choose.”- Viktor Frankl
The Positivity Challenge is this: For 7 days you will try to only think positive thoughts. Whatever happens to you will see the good side of it and what positive things you can learn and take away from it. By the end of the week you will have started to discover the very real benefits of a positive thinking, how much negative thoughts there are both in you and the world (you might be surprised) and begun establishing a new habit to replace your old, less constructive one. And then you can continue from there.
What I suggesting here is not a mindless kind of positive thinking where you pretend everything is ok whilst the house and your bed is actually on fire. Instead it’s you noticing a situation or stimuli and then choosing a positive and useful response to it instead of reacting in a knee-jerk way.
It´s you focusing on what could be a more positive and useful solution for you. Or even better, what could be a win-win situation if the situation involves other people (which many important situations in our lives do). A win-win solution is more often an even more satisfying and beneficial solution than the one where only you win.